Ugh, it has been a rough few weeks. As the trip to Australia gets closer and closer, normally I would be super excited for the trip. But right now I am feeling the opposite. Each day it gets closer I get excited that I will get to see my family, my friends and introduce everyone to Heidi. But then I get smacked with the feeling of homesickness. I want to see my friends and family so bad. It has been over 4 years since I have seen a lot of my friends and about 3 years since I have seen my own family (at least mum and dad, others longer).
I really shouldn't be getting this feeling, my life is over here now and I love it. I don't regret leaving but each and every time someone asks me how long I have been here in the USA, asking if I miss home, well that doesn't help. I just want to see my friends, speak to them, hug them and I can't 🙁
I know that things will be worse when I leave Brisbane as I will have the feeling that I don't want to leave them but is it better to just suck it up and keep moving, or do I decide to just not do that to myself in the future? I know I can't do that because I want Heidi to experience Australia, and all that it has to offer. But I also don't want to put myself through so much pain every time.
Maybe it is just that time I need to suck it up and stay excited about the trip and not think about the other stuff. Still hurts though!
4 years ago today, I walked through the car park of an airport dragging the following with me
I was setting off on an epic journey one that would change my life forever. Funnily enough thanks to the date line i would touch back down into Los Angeles still on the same day. My new life would begin early in the morning on the 2nd of May 2012. I cleared immigration and would begin a whole new journey. I was now a resident in the USA. It wasn't permanent at that point, but it was for a few years at least.
So much has changed over the last few years, I have moved around a few times, changed jobs, met someone I love, got married, travelled, done some amazing things and it has only been 4 years! O how time has changed! I have so many new friends, friends who make me thankful for life each and every day. I walked away from my life back in Australia and left everyone behind. That was not easy but my new friends and family over here make it easier each day.
As the new year in this country begins, this one will be a blast. I start a whole new chapter with Heidi in the next few months with a new house, getting to introduce my family to my wife & her family. I am sure that as things in the new job get better and better, life will be a roller coaster.
Looking back over photos from that flight over to the USA and the first few weeks in the country was a blast this morning. However I did see one photo that made me think twice:
This thing has been haunting me since the day I arrived in this country...... nemesis!!!